When I first had the desire to write a blog I was filled with such a sense of excitement. I have always felt that I have just so much to say and I have been searching for a way to express myself. I thought that this would be perfect on so many levels. I could not wait to sit down at the computer and let the morsels of wisdom flow effortlessly from my brain to the page. I was divinely inspired after all. This should be a piece of cake.

So I set up my blog, searching for just the right colors and that dynamic design that would say everything about me that I wanted to share with the world. I paid the extra money for a private name, I did not want my information available to just anyone.  I just knew this was going to be huge. I was all set to go.

I got out my computer, did a  short centering exercise to connect with my inner wisdom and I started to share my truth. I was well past 600 words before I took a break. As I started to read over my story  I realized that I had said absolutely nothing. A little discouraged I saved the paper and figured I would come back later and edit it down into some deep philosophical message.

The next day I started a new topic and the same thing happened. 600 words and nothing, not a coherent thought on the paper. I saved this document too. I reviewed my paper from the day before and it read even worse the day after. I struggled to find the words and the structure. To share the most profound thoughts.

My mind started to wander to some old familiar beliefs:

I have nothing to say.

I am a fraud and a failure.

I was just meant to pass through this life an insignificant speck of nothing.

I was overcome with fear. What I came to realize is that my ego was in full control of the situation. I needed so much to be heard and to be seen. This was no longer about what I wanted to share. It had become all  about how I was going to be perceived. I had lost all perspective. My head had taken over. I then heard the words of my teacher Debbie Ford:

Your head can’t take you where your heart wants to go.

I understood where the problem was. It was my heart that knew the truth and wanted to shout out that we are all magnificent beyond belief. We were put on this earth to reveal the very best version of our selves that we could possibly be. Live large and live out loud! Remember that we are all divine beings in human form. Own it. Let your light illuminate the way to those who may have forgotten just how awesome they are.

Face yourself and know the truth:

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It’s our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

-Marianne Williamson,  A Return to Love